I’m not one to post text on here. I’m not one to even post much any more, I just feel like shit. I’m laid in bed next to the girl I love. We’re not together anymore. We’re ‘friends’ but the main problem is I love her more than anything.

I don’t make her happy any more.

I gave it everything I had, wasn’t that enough. She is my everything, so in theory I have nothing now. Nothing. I’m alone. To make it worse she has someone, another ‘friend’ who she has fallen for. And they’re so cute. It makes me sick and I want to die. I didn’t ask for this? And I’m going to have to see them every day. We have the same friend group so I can tell you now that I’ll be the one to alienate myself to avoid it, because that’s who I am. So this leaves me with minus nothing. An all time low. I just want simplicity, more than anything.

I want the hurt to stop.